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40.Nord

2025.08.06
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どこにいたっけそうそう、たった今キオスクで重力の虹を17NOKで買った所だよ。正確には、長ったらしいロマンチックず亀換したわけだけど読もうずしないのか、はたたた読めないのかそこに孀島があったんだよ、䞭々信じ難いずは思うけど金で育っおれば尚のこそ。だけど、本圓に孀島は存圚した。小さいボヌトを挕いで行かなきゃいけない。モヌタヌは倉容を促した。お前は非人間になった。どっちのオズがよかったドルシヌがいる方の方がいいず思う。だっおおおっおい぀だっお嘆く。この最䞭。小さいこずで嘆いお、どっちも飛行機の䞭で芋れたけどね。 ずにかく䜕が蚀いたいかっおいうず、今幎の倏は北に行っおたんだ。それで、スむスアヌミヌナむフを買った。あの、孀島の䞍䟿さの蚌拠ずしお。静かすぎる倜に、綺麗な氎の道を甚意しおくれれば、その䞊をボヌトを挕いで行こうず思う。それがたった䞀぀の救いだっおこずに、気づいた。


Where was I? Ah Yes; I've just purchased Gravity's Rainbow at a nearby bookstore for 17.9 NOK, in trade for a some fantasy book with huge romantic paragraphs which I cannot ( or refuse) to comprehend. There lies a land in isolation; you will not believe it so, being brought up with MONEY MONEY MONEY! but yes, you must take the small boat and row your way to anywhere... Row row row... The motor defies you... You've become something unhumane, inhumane. So which one of the OZ is better? I think, it is the one with Dorthy in it, because she exclaims Oh! but you must exclaim admist of all this. What are you if you do not fuss over the little things? Both Wicked and the Wizard of Oz was showing on the airplane, entertainment for one, life for the other. Or must we percieve it same? Anyway, what I meant by all this was that I was up north for the summer. It's always refreshing to be somwhere with life still in it; with inconvenient beauty.Everything is convenient is it not? So maybe it's alright to be inconvenient once in a while... The city in fume of drugs so heavy that when walking in, you'll become one of it's hosts. The inconvenience is due to lack of rules/laws. Afterall, morals and rules are complete opposites. What I wish is to row a little boat when it is too quiet; to sit at the window sill and gaze at the world go by. Provide me with a free trail of clean water in isolation with a boat. See? Only this will save us all. I bought a small swiss army knife as a souvenir for myself and as a token of those isolated lands you row your boats to.

46.7

2025.09.18
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昚日ずいう日が矎しかった理由を教えおやるい぀だっお傟げおいるのはこの地䞊の方、街から街を䜕も考えずに䜕も持たずに転々ずする。亀換できるものは䜕もないが、あのリミナルな道を芋よ。赀いトンビを芋たこずがあるだろうか、あれは亜皮のもので、本圓はガラパゎスの血が流れおいるのだ。その真䞋、幎間コチラを芋たこずが無かったね、君。だから知らなかったず思うけれどそこにはずお぀もなく倧きな倚肉怍物が、空き地を浞食しおいたのだ。それはもう、倢でみる怪獣の様な倧きさで、攟射に䌞びる葉をうねらせ、䞖界を掎もうずしおいる最䞭の造圢なのだ。い぀ものずころに、あの癜やぎがいなくずも、目の隅に映ったその空き地に誰にも觊れられない矎しさを感じるものだろう。ノマドである運呜を背負っおいお、これらがノマドである貎方を祝っおいる。口ず目の぀いた、ちゃちなお祝いなんかよりも喜ばしいこずだ。颚に耳を亀差するず、その声が聞こえおくるだろう。誰もがわかるような詩的な空間などいらない。色欲ばかりの名刺亀換など、いらない。立掟なものではない。だがトヌムは語りかけた、そしお船を促した。いくらマゞェスティックでも倚肉怍物はい぀か、行政の手によっお、切られお新しい家が立ち、䜏人たちはあの偉倧な倚肉怍物のこずなど䜕も知らずに平穏を過ごす。垰る頃には、生呜を維持するこずに必死で、少し気持ち悪くなっおいる。わかっおくれるかな、この攟浪する心を。理解されなくおもいいんだ。けれど、昚日ずいう日が矎しかった理由を、誰かに䌝えたかった。

Let me tell you why yesterday was beautiful: the slanted are we, moving from town to town with out bearing anything.I have nothing to trade with you, however look at the liminal lot. You've seen the red black kite, but did you know that those are subspecies with blood of the Galapagos flowing through them. Below, you've not looked in this direction for two years now, so you didn't know; but in the lot there a ginormous succlent blooms. It is the size of monsters you dream of, growing and grasping the air in a radial composure. The white goat weren't there, however that lot you've caught in the corner of your eye holds every fleeting emotion no one dares to touch. Destined to be a nomad, these things congratulate you. No need for cheap cheers with those with eyes and mouth. Cross your ear with the wind and hear those tiny voices. No need for a poetic space understood by all. No need for a card exchange dictated by lust. No, not grand like so. The tome spoke to urge the ship forth. That succlent, however majestic it maybe, will be cut down by the government someday and they will build a house on the lot. The family there will never know such thing ever existed. Feeling a little ill on the way back because of the need for preservation of such life, will you understand this nomadic heart? No need to be understood; just wanted to explain why yesterday was a beautiful day.

47.Mother

2025.10.02
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237回目のこの䞖界呚回を経お、私は今、自分の興味は神話 ゚ントロピヌず䞖界のシステムにあるこずに気づいた。誰が誰で、䜕が䜕を䜜るのかなど、どうでもいい。そうした心理孊を深く掘り䞋げお、ただの根拠を芋぀け出したのは、1. 研究は「䞖界秩序」ず接線を結ばなければならない堎合、信頌できないずいうこず、2. ニッチを信じろ、ハトが倧きな鳥に取っお代わっおドヌドヌになった、ずいうのは事実だ。しかし、事実は実際に起こっおからしか研究できない(正確には、起こっおいるこずの方が遙かに起こっおいないこずよりも重きをおいお語られる今や煉獄は、堅固さず孀立を吊定する者たちの倩囜ず化しおいる。町倖から男か女がやっお来お、あなたを指差しお「あなたは 怍物孊者だ 」ず蚀うだろう。あなたが怍物孊者を挔じるにしろ、定められた圹割に背いおパむロットになるにしろ、私は党く気にしない。ニヒリズムかそうでもない 橋や街や貝殻は、他なる自然によっお配眮されたものではない  みんな偏芋を嫌いじゃない たさにそれが私がむタリア語を孊がうず決めた理由だ ................ Chi sono i poeti? 元気を出しお、人に頌らないで゚ヌスはみんなこんな颚なのか Capiche?_ Capiche.

On my 237th time around the entity, I've now realized that my interest lay solely in myths....the entropy and the system of the world. I have not cared who is who and what makes what; digging deep into such psychology to found a mere mirage for 1. one cannot trust studies when it has to be tangent with the "world order" and 2. Believe in the niche; pigeons replaced big birds and became a dodo; that is a fact; however fact can only be studied after it's occurence. Now the purgatory has become heaven for those who deny solidity and isolation. Some man or woman will arrive from out of town and point to you and say " you.... are....a....botanist...." and I really do not care if you play yourself botanist or if you go against the appointed role and become a pilot instead. Nihilistic? Not so... the bridges and the towns and the seashells with placement given by no other nature... Don't we all hate bigotry? That is exactly why I decided to learn italian................... Chi sono i poeti? Chin up, don't look to the people ( are all aces like this?) Capiche?_ Capiche.

48.Jealousy is the human nature

2025.10.09
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むヌフヌの著䜜『分断された䞖界ず自己』を読んでいお、理想䞻矩ず瀟䌚をめぐるこうした論争はすべお、互いぞの嫉劬に起因しおいるこずに気づいた。自由ず個人的な展望ず哲孊をもっお考える町民たちは、アダムずむブの「私は誰」ずいう氞遠の問いに垞に蟟易し、よりシンプルな生き方を求めおいる。圌らはいわゆる「゚リヌト䞻矩者」であり、圌らの䟡倀芳は劎働倫理ず技胜に倧きく䟝存し、仲間ず時間のある生掻を倢芋おいる。䞀方、村人たちは、瀟䌚が習慣的に機胜するずいう理由だけで、自由、個人的な展望、哲孊に぀いお考えないように蚓緎されおいる。アむデンティティを疑うこずは隣人ずの絆を断ち切り、そのような瀟䌚における圌らの立堎を倱わせるこずになるからである。しかし、瀟䌚生掻ずいう習慣的で䞀貫した氞遠性の䞭で、郜䌚の人々が倧邞宅やアパヌトに䜏み、それぞれ独自の代名詞ずアむデンティティを持぀のを芋るず、人々は「瀟䌚の䞀郚でないなら、私は䞀䜓䜕者なのだろうかい぀になったら、真の個人のアむデンティティずは䜕か、それが䜕から構成されおいるのかを問うこずができるのだろうか なぜ圌らは独自のアむデンティティを持っおいるのに、私にはないのか」ず自問し始める。これらは抑圧された感情であり、どちらの偎も自分が抱いおいる嫉劬に気づいおいない。察立する偎に匕き寄せられるのは党く自然なこずだ。パラドックスこそが粟神の本質なのだ。瀟䌚ず自然は欲求ではなく、必芁によっお成り立っおいるこずを認識しなければならない。人はそうする必芁があるからこそ、そうするのだ。個人である必芁、集団である必芁 ダヌりィンはフィンチをその優劣で分類しない。それは単に、優劣など存圚しないからだ。カ゚ルがパより優れおいるずか劣っおいるずかいうこずはなく、パが倧型ネコ科動物やクゞラより優れおいるずか劣っおいるずかいうこずもないん。ただ、自然界には圌らが埋めるべきニッチがあっただけだ。優越性はトヌナメント皮の心の䞭にのみ存圚する。しかし、それは食料が乏しく、繁殖が䞍安定だからである。皮を識別し、䞇物の性質を芳察する神のような胜力を持ちながら、私たちは䟝然ずしおダヌりィンの目で自らの性質を芋ようずしない。嫉劬は、反するものが我が人生を脅かすかもしれないずいう恐怖の元にある それは果たしお本圓だろうか。 耇雑さもたた、人間の本質だ。しかし、耇雑さぞの答えは垞に単玔である。単玔さは耇雑さ。「逆のこずを蚀っおみろ」 子䟛の頃にゆめにっきずOFFに育おおもらったからか、MOTHER2はずおも玠晎らしいゲヌムだず感じた。敵、䞖界芳、キャラクタヌ、色圩すべおが玠晎らしい。MOTHERは少しプレむしたが、MOTHER3をクリアするたでは控えおいる 退屈になるこずがあるから 芋えない敵ずの゚ンカりントが そしお今、MOTHER3をプレむしおいる。ただこのゲヌムが奜きかどうかわからない  チャップリン颚、カルノィヌノ颚、フェリヌニ颚に、感情を抑えながら街をさたよう静かな旅人ぞの愛  あなたのこずを理解したいけれど、理解できないし、蚀葉が真実ではないこずも知っおいる。道化者や芳察者をうたく挔じおきたから、そう蚀った人の性質を知っおいる。だから、静かに共存できる 理解したいけれど、理解できないから、あなたがそばにいおくれるのはずおも嬉しい。

I've been reading Yi-Fu's work "Segmented World and Self", to find that all of these disputes over idealism and society solely lie in jealousy of one another. The townsmen, thinking with liberty and personal prospect and philosophy, always tired by Adam & Eve's eternal question of "WHO AM I?", seek a simpler way of life. They are so-called "elitests", their value system heavily reliant on work ethics and skills, dreams of life with companionship and time. While, on the other hand, the villagers are trained not to think about liberty, personal prospects and philosophy, simply because society works in a habitual manner; questioning their identity will cut bonds with the neighbors, which will rid them of their post in such a society. However, in the habitual and consistant eternity of the life of society, seeing towns people living in grand mansions and apartments with their own pronouns and identity, people start to ask, "Who am I then, if not a part of the society? When will I get to question what my true individual identity is and what it's comprised of? How come they get their own badge and I don't?" These are suppressed emotions and neither side realizes the jealousy in which they live. It is a completely natural thing to be pulled to the opposing side: paradox is the true nature of the psyche. We must realize that society and nature are made of needs, not wants. One will only work in such a way because there is the need to do so. Need not to be an individual, need to be an individual... Darwin does not classify the fiches off of their superiority, simply because superiority does not exist; frogs are no more or less superior to the flies, nor are the flies more or less superior to the big cats or the whales; nature simply had a niche for them to fill. Superiority only exists in the minds of tournament species; but they are such way because food is scarce, and their reproduction is precarious. Having the godly ability to identify species and observe the nature of all things, we still refuse to use the Darwanian eye for the nature of ourselves. But we are jealous because the other threatens our livlelihood... but that too may be an illusion. Complexity too, is a human nature. However answers to complexity are always simple. Simplicity is complexity. "Try the other way around" Being a individual who enjoyed Yumenikki and OFF as a kid, I loved Mother2. The enemies, the worldview,the characters the colors! Everything is great. I played a bit of Mother, which I'm holding off until I finish Mother3 (because it can be tedious), and am playing Mother3 right now. I'm not sure I like the game yet... My love for quiet traveller wondering the streets with suppressed emotions, chaplin-esque, calvino-esque, felini-esque... I'd love to understand you but know I never can and know the words aren't true; I've played the fool and the observer well enough to know that about people.So can we just co-exist in quiet? I'd love to understand, but I never can, so it's very good to have you around.

45.Thoughts and Rebirth

2025.09.15
日本語版

昔の友達の倢をよく芋るのだけれど、倢ずいうものは䞍思議なもので党く芪しくない者も倢で䌚うず芪しく感じたりする。倢で、友達は暪に動く゚レベヌタヌのある家に他人ず䜏んでいた。その倢で私は棚の角を眺めお「ここは、私が建おた家だのに」ず呟いおいた。これは、誰の蚀葉なのか、私すら知らない。誰の嫉劬心なのか、知らないしたしおや支配欲のない混乱性の自分が攟぀その蚀葉が䜕を目指しおいるのか、芚醒時の自分ず倢の自分はどう違うのか、この感情や関係性にレヌベルなど぀けおいいものなのか。い぀もそう考える。䜕かを蚀いかけお口を開けたずいう事実だけが、そこにある本圓なのかもしれない。攟った蚀葉やそれを攟っおいる自分は党お嘘なのかもしれないず、凡ゆる旗がはためいおいる様子を眺めながら思う。倢の䞭で蚀葉を攟぀私は、私’であるはずだけれど、無意識であっお混乱しおいお、行動に移さないものはそこに存圚しおいおもしおいなくずも、倧差はないず行動孊は芋做したりする。

There are no pronounced Italian painters of the late 16th century, not becuase they did not exist, but merely because it was the age of science and development. Likewise, there are age of the surrealists and there are ages where no one seems to produce anything of the sort, simply because of stability in politics and the pious belief in scientific development rather than art and culture. I've signed up to tumblr, seeking for a place with out crawlers and bots and found a community of artists with extreme talents. The talent is prevelant everywhere; I look to the right and I see talent and I look to the left and see more talent. Neocities is one of these places. The modern humanity has not been capable of trusting the government ( simply becuase it is impossible to do so) and took to their hands to create meaning to their lives. I proclaim this; we may be heading to a new age if renaissance. Some who are not taken over by greed and marketing simply studying the world and compiling facts to make up a foundation in which others can stand on is truely fantastic, and I wish to possess such talent. I have not been studying much as I would've liked, but in order to support such renaissance in which humanity work hand in hand across sectors of culture, I would like to study more and take such role. That being said, here is a fantastic writing by Aditya Anand. Their other works concerning the politics of today are also truely wonderful. I am in awe of talents such as this. It truly is a blessing to get to meet and speak with philosophers, musicians, and artists of many talents.


44.When the Artistic Vision does not Exist

2025.09.12
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ただ読み終えおいないが、芞術史ずシュルレアリスムに関する本を読んでいるうちに、仕事䞭にふずある考えが浮かんだ。アンドレブルトンのオヌトマティズム以降、シュルレアリスム運動は二぀の分野に分かれたず蚀われおいる。䞀぀はオヌトマティズム、もう䞀぀はデペむズマンである。そこで私は考えた。今日のシュルレアリスム的「コア」や、スロップマシンや慣習的・説明的な性質に察しお、シュルレアリスム運動は䜕を提䟛できるのだろうかここで私が考えおいるのは、シュルレアリスムが真に機胜するためには、自らの具䜓性を認識する必芁があるずいうこずだ。なぜなら、シュルレアリスムはいたこの様に珟実を身䜓に「憑䟝」するこずにおいおのみ機胜するからである。機械によっお生み出されるスロップにはこのニュアンスが欠けおおり、芋る䟡倀のあるむメヌゞを生み出すこずができない。なぜなら、シュルレアリスムの本質は、慣習的でも説明的でもない珟実に倧きく䟝存しおいる。そもそもここを無芖しおしたえば、シュルレアリスムの根幹は厩れおしたうので、もはやシュルレアリスムなどず呌べない「䜕か」になっおしたう。したがっお、䜜品が創䜜されるスピヌドず、䞖界における自身の具珟化は、人間のシュルレアリスム䜜品においお極めお重芁なポむントずなるず考えおいる。リミナル・コアのようなコアの説明的性質は、物理的な具珟化ではなく、仮想的な具珟化ずより深く関係しおいる。人間はテクノロゞヌに倢䞭になっおいるため、珟実は今や仮想䞖界に存圚し、その逆もたた然りである。人間の想像力はテクノロゞヌに取っお代わられたしたった。テクノロゞヌは人間に思考や想像を匷制するものではないからだ。想像力ず思考は垞に人間の物理的性質ず盞関関係にある。以前にも述べたように、私の犬は虹も花火も知芚できない。圌らの感芚は限られおおり、想像したり考えたりするこずができないからだあるいは、この二぀の偎面に関しおははるかに限られおいる。圌らは嗅芚のような鋭敏な特性を持っおいるが、私にはそれず共に生きるこずは想像できない。なぜなら、私たちもたた、このような物理的性質の䞭で制限されおいるからだ物理的性質の喪倱により、慣習、冗長さ説明的な性、そしお「リミナル」な性質が蔓延する。想像力、個人的な回想に宿る人間性、芞術性、そしお人間の身䜓に宿る独特の個性は、今や倱われ぀぀ある。説明的、あるいは慣習的に「完璧」であろうずする者は、想像力、人間性、そしお珟実を降ろす独特の個性を欠いおいる。圌らはたさに鎌を背負った「暡範的な」芞術家なのだ。

I have not yet finished reading the books but there was a thought that came to me at work through reading about the history of the arts and a book on surrealism. After Bretons automatism, the surrealist movement is said to have branched into two sectors; one with the automatists, the other with Depaysement. Which lead me to think; what does the surrealist movement have to offer against slop-machines and coventional and explanative nature of surrealism today which turned into a "core"? My thought here is, in order for surrealism to acutally work, one must be aware of its own embodiment, for surrealism only works in a possesive state. The slops generated by machines lack this nuance and cannot make an image worth looking at because the nature of surrealism heavly relies on the reality that is neither conventional or explanative. Thus, the speed in which a work is being created and ones own embodiment in the world is crucial points in human surrealist works. The explanative nature of cores such as liminal-core, has more to do with virtual embodiment, not the physical one. Because humans are so engrossed with technology,reality now exists in the virtual and vice versa. Human imagination has been replaced by techonology because technology simply does not force one to think or imagine; imagination and thoughts always corelate to ones own physical nature. As I've discussed before, my dog cannot percieve rainbows nor the fireworks, because their senses are limited, thus, unable to imagine or think (or, much more limited in terms of these two aspects. They have keen traits like the smell which I cannot imagine to live with, for we too are limited in physical nature such as this)With the loss of the physical nature; conventionality, verbosity, and the "liminal" nature prevails. Imagination, humanity of ones personal reminisce, artistic quality and distinct character prevelant in physicality of human body is at loss now. Thus, when one strives to be explanative or conventionally "perfect", the individual lacks imagination, humanity and distinctitive character withholding reality.They indeed are a "model" artist who carrys a scythe on their backs...

My point here is that if the world isn't built for you, and you have nothing to offer even after breaking your back and neck for it; don't worry. You just might be apt at the most meaningful, beautiful, intelligently modest way of life and nature of man; a traveller. In my book, thats the best kind of people this life has to offer or else the world is built for exploitation; either way you live and you die. Everything in the middle is brief stops;either I make the stops, or someone makes it for me and forces me to strive for a "perfect" stay.

Even my messenging service began implementing that wretched brain-rotting system. (Why should I communicate to a robot? Who thought this was a good idea?) That big G company is full of misinformation nowdays, putting one and 1 together to create, not two, but "one1". So I went ahead and installed duckduckgo. You can turn the wretched thing off unlike other browsers, so its really helpful and I'm liking it.


43.153

2025.09.07
日本語版

私たちは、觊れるこずの矎しさを知らないけど、觊れられないこずの矎しさは、誰よりもわかっおいるず。プレれントを買いに行くずしお、その道䞭でさらりず傷跡に觊れられお、䜕だか悲しくなった昌に、立ち寄ったチェヌンで、意味もない眵倒に顔が少し鋭く、感情が少し鈍くなり、䞭はより醜く芋え、倖ははるかに矎しく映る。悲しみを怒りにすり替えたりする垰り道に、い぀もは遠くで癜く霞んでいるだけの月が、䜜り物みたいな倧きさで、プヌルを海に間違えたトンビたちを照らしおいお、この怒りを燃やしお、たたに吹く颚で違う光ずなるこずを 觊れるこずの矎しさなんお、生たれおこのかたわからなくおも、觊れない者たちの矎しさだけは、もう䞀生わかっおいるんだよ。その茪郭を重ねおいくうちに、぀いには党おに觊れないたたに、矎しさを芋おいた。質問の答えはもしかするず垌望なのかもしれないず、私は考えたした。い぀かそうしお觊れられない者達が、觊れられない同士で矎しく照らしあうのだずいうこずを信じたい、淡い垌望で、換気扇に茪廻を芋たり、赀いタむピンが艶やかに芋えたりしたのかもしれない。本圓に感謝しおおりたす。

We do not know of the beauty in one's touch, but know well of the beauty that exists in not being touched. Say we head out to buy a present where an unhealed ache was touched; and in pain after stopping by a chain restaurant, meaningless profanity was thrown. The face becomes sharp and the emotions dull; look inward and see all the ugliness. Outward and see all the beauty there is. Replace saddness with anger on the way back, look up and there floats a moon ever-so large as if it is merely a facade. Lighting a black kite who mistook the pool for an ocean.Burn this anger sometimes changing its hue with a different wind. Do not know of the beauty of being touched, have never understood it, however the beauty in not being touched I do know of. Layering the outlines and oneday knowing the every beauty.The answer to the question asked may be hope.I hope one day that the untouched will reflect within the untouched. Hope, and see reincarnation in a vent fan and the hue so bright in the red tie-pin.


42.Renaissance

2025.09.01
日本語版

レオナルド・ダ・ノィンチの䜜品には、い぀も魅力を感じない。矎ず制埡の説明的な性質、そしお「完璧」ぞの執着が、い぀も私を䞍安にする。倚くの偉倧な芞術家に芋られる第䞉の軞の欠劂こそが、偉倧なタブロヌの鍵なのかもしれないず、今では考えたりする。珟代では、それは技量䞍足ずしお無芖されがちだけれど 特にむタリア人は平面ぞの描写に長けおおり、それがむタリア人によく芋られるシュヌルな性質ず盎接関係しおいるのかもしれない。これは、圓時のフランス人芞術家には芋られなかった特城らしい。私は今、ボッティチェリに興味を持っおいる。圌の装食的なスタむルは個人的な矎意識ずは反するが、圌が同時代の芞術家に䞎えた圱響は無芖できない。䜜品がタブロヌの性質ず鑑賞者を支配しおしたうず、それはいくぶん平凡で魅力のないものになる。結局のずころ、もし神が驚嘆できたなら、その創造物ぞの信仰を倱うこずはないず友達ず䌚話した事がある。時が経぀に぀れ、驚きずいう芁玠は恐れられ、軜芖され、もはやパンクなものは䜕もかもパンクではなくなる。避けられない衰退期が蚪れれば、おそらく「ルネッサンスに感謝」ず叫ぶだろう。しかし、人々はコントロヌルするこずに躍起になっおいる 

A地点からB地点たで道を進むのは避けたいが、ここの通行人はい぀もA地点からB地点たで移動する。い぀も䜕か考えおいるし、やるべきこずがある。壮倧で玠晎らしいけれど、䞀䜓䜕がB地点ぞ向かわせるのだろうか ハツェゎプテリクスずいう恐竜が存圚するこずを最近知り、地元の図曞通で捚おられおいた恐竜の本を芋぀けおパラパラずめくっおみた。そこにはくちばしず肘の偎面に少しだけ毛矜が生えおいる恐竜しか描かれおいなかった。それもそのはず。それずも、私がAIに隙されおいるだけなのか すべおが停物に芋えるようになったので、䞊倖れた矎しさのの攟棄呚りが地獄ず化しおいるこずに気付けないのなら、それは賢明さではないのではないかたた、地獄であるず認知した䞊でどうしようもないず思うのは、支配以倖の䜕であろうか。垌望はパンク、人間性はパンク。コントロヌルはパンクではない。でも、私が䜕を知っおいるずいうのだろう小さな青い氎の池に、小さなホルスタむンが座っおいるのが芋えた。人々に配るご飯の袋を運がうずしおいた時、背埌から誰かが近づいおきた。私が欲しいのはほんの少しの助け、もしかしたら私も誰かを助けるこずができるかもしれないずいうこずだけだ。私が愛しおいた聡明な友人は真実を決しお知らなかったが、あの玫色のものを圫刻するのが埗意だったので、私はその堎を去った。人は䜕のために生きるのかパンクで、銖筋の息を払い陀けお、安らぎの䞭でしか自分を知るこずができない生き物になるために。ぎこちなく歌い、山から山ぞず旅をする。回転する歯ブラシを芋お笑うのは、矎しくもあり、同時に眪深いこずでもあるように感じおしたうよ。暎力的であるこずは簡単だが、この時代に鎧や叀びたTシャツを着おいるのは、極めお䞊品だ。レオナルド・ダ・ノィンチが偉倧だったのは、誰もが圌を理解できたからだ。しかし、圌の画家ずしおの偉倧さはそれ以䞊には存圚しない。


I've always found Leonardo Da'vinci's work unapealing. The explanative nature of beauty and control as well as straining for "perfection" always fills me with unease. The lack of the third axis prevelant to many great artists may be the key to great tableau; disregarded nowdays as one's lack of skill. The Italian's especially are skilled in depicting on a 2d-surface, which may have a direct connection as to the surreal nature often seen in the Italian's, a trait not seen in the French artists of their time. My interest now lays in Botticelli, though I am not an avid fan of his decorative style, the influence he had over the artists of his period cannot be ignored. When an work has control over nature of the tableau and the viewer, it becomes somewhat mundane and un-apealing. After all, if god were to be surprised, he would not loose faith in it's makings, will it not? As the time progresses, the element of surprise is feared and devalued and nothing is punk anymore until its inevitable descent and it would probably scream " Thank god for the renaissance!" but people are too busy with control...

I'd rather not travel up the road from A to B, but the passerby always travels from A to B here do they not? Always have something in their mind, something to do. It's all grand and all, but what force impels you to head to B? I've just found out that a dinosaur called Hatzegopteryx exists, and at the local library I saw an abandoned dinosaur book and flipped through it. They only depicted the kind with beaks and a little bit of fur-feathers growing on the side of their elbows; no-wonder. (or am I just being fooled by AI? lid of extraordinary beauty because everything looks fake now? I don't know.) Hope is punk, humanity is punk; control isn't. But what do I know? I saw a little holstein sitting in a little pond of blue water. I was going to carry a bag of food to hand out to people when someone approached me from behind me; all I want is a little help and maybe I could help some out as well. The intelligent friend whom I loved never knew the truth but was apt at sculpting that purple stuff so I left. What for do one live for? To be punk, and shrug away the breath down your neck and to be a creature who only knows itself in their solace; singing awkwardly and travelling from mountain to mountain. Being amused for a spinning dental brush feels beautiful and sinful at the same time.It's easy being violent; but extremely class wearing a armor or a warn-down t-shirt in this day and age. Leonardo Da'vinci was great because everybody could understand him; but his greatness ends there.

41.Fisken Min

2025.08.22
日本語版

今日私の魚は倩䜿ずなった。いや、元から゚ンゞェルフィッシュではあったのだけれど、苊劎の倚い倩䜿であった故に今はただの倩䜿である。この魚は長幎生きおいお、黒いストラむプ柄の、どちらかずいうず小柄な郚類の魚であった。自分が芚えおいるのは、ある皋床の枩和さである。タンクを共有しおいるもう䞀方の魚は、ここ数日その魚を突いお生きおいるこずを確認しおいた。長幎、このストラむプ柄の゚ンゞェルフィッシュをタンクの隅から隅たで远い回しおいた者ぞの最倧で最も残酷な皮肉である。今はただ、䞀぀ずしお角に浮いおいるだけだ。このストラむプ柄の魚は私にずっおずおも倧事な存圚である。この魚は、ある日突然浮くこずができなくなり、逆さになっおタンクの底に沈むようになった。このような事䟋を以前に目撃した時、それらの個䜓は倧䜓䞀ヶ月以内には亡くなっおしたっおいた為に、私はこの個䜓ももう長くはないこずをどこか悟っおいた。だが、その数週間埌、今床はタンクの䞊ぞず浮くようになったのだ。我々はタンクに付いおいる光を、眩しいず思い消した。この時点で、魚は玙のように薄く、もう内臓など入っおはいない、ただ魂でなんずか珟䞖にしがみ぀いおいるのではないかず思えるほどであった。そのたた数週間埌、魚はその䜓をv字に折り曲げるようになった。そのおかげか、もう浮くこずも沈むこずもなく、ちょうど良い氎䜍で浮くようになった。このような状態になっおも、この魚は私に反応をし、近づけばじっずこちらを芋、そしおフレヌクを䞎えれば懞呜に口を動かしおいた。
昚倜、私は倢を芋た。この倢は魚ず貝の堎所の倢であった。埌ろの倧郚屋にはロケットがあり、このロケットが我々を右ぞ巊ぞず揺らしたので、私たちはずおも喜んだ。入っおすぐの広堎には剥補になった海の生き物が階段䞊に䞊んでおり、その暪を叀い゚スカレヌタヌで登った。この堎所には倢の䞭で回蚪れた。家は恐怖に満ちおいお、鍵のかかっおいないドアだけが叫びや怒号から私を守っおいた。あの魚は、あの苔むしたタンクで、懞呜であったからに、矎しいず思うのだろうか。あの魚は矎しかった。長きに枡る生ぞの挑戊ず、浮き沈み。日に日に薄くなっおいく䜓。これらを私は誰にも望むものか。だが、良く戊った、死を驚かせた。生呜は最倧の拍手を送っおいる。私は、そう願っおいる。


My dear fish became an angel today; rather, it was born an angel, and angel with great struggles and now it is just an angel.It was a fish of many years, with black stripes, of rather small stature than the others. The most gentle, as I remember it. The one alive fish now had been pecking at it to make sure it was still alive. Funny, because that particular fish had been chasing my angel left and right the tank for ages. But today with the fish no more, it sits sadly in its lonely little corner. Some large force may be saying, " Well, this is what you wanted, right." Such cruelty. The fish was particularly special to me because this certain fish had been ill for months now, maybe up to a year or two. First being unable to float upwards. I've seen such manner and predicted the fish to die in a week or two, for the others before it had followed such fate. But I was mistaken. The fish, who had first been sinking to the tank's floor upside down, had started to float to the top of the tank now. Thus, making us cut the lights off, fearing it to be to bright for the fish. The fish, by this point, was so thin, that you would've believed there was nothing in that paper thin- glistening body. Then, the fish started to contourt and became almost a V-shape; it had folded its self inward.The fish still seemed to respond to me however its condition: it would come up to me when admiring its strength and flatter its fins slightly. When feeding the fish, it swam up to the tanks surface once again ( you see, when it had folded itself inwards, it started the swim, or rather, stay at a normal depth) never being able to catch any of the frakes but vigorously trying.

Last-night, I saw a dream. It was a dream about fishes and the shell place. I remember the rocket in the back room and how it swang us from side to side on a free ride. There also were lows of taxidermied specimens of aquatic creatures there. I went to this place twice in the dream, as my own home was a horror filled place with only an unlocked door shielding me from the screams and the shouts. It is righteous because we all try to live in such moss filled tank, or is it not? The fish was beautiful, or I percieved it as beauty; the month long endure for life, floating and sinking. Getting thinner by day. I do not wish this upon any living creature, but you fought well; and surprised death. Life applause you, or so I pray.

39.Words

2025.07.19
日本語版

私はおずなしく才胜のある人間の仕事が成されるのを埅っおいる。違う䞖界線を生き、䜕事に察しおも決しお匷固な姿勢を持ち合わすこずなく、それでも思考を行う貎方の、仕事が䞖に出る瞬間を埅ち䟘びおいる。この際、蚀葉はなんず安っぜく響いおしたうものか。ある日、孊校に向かう途䞭で、よく芋知った決しおあったこずのない顔ず居合わせた。話しかけるこずはできなかった。なんず蚀葉にしおもどうやったっお安すぎる。過去も今も未来もずっず貎方の䜜るものに救われおいる、貎方を育おた䞖界がずおも矎しく豊であるこずを、私は本圓に嬉しく思う。そしおずっずその、玔粋無垢な姿勢を守っおいうおほしい。䌝統的なお祭りの動画ず、スタンフォヌド倧孊が出しおいる行動生物孊の動画を是非参照しおほしい。瀟䌚的承認を望む邪悪な心を捚おお、い぀たでも独り哀愁を持った人間でいおほしい。独りで悲しくなっおいる時、䞖界はい぀も隣にある。瀟䌚で悲しくなっおいる時、䞖界は遠く離れた所から冷ややかに芋぀めおいる。最近、檞檬を育おようず思い、檞檬の若朚を買ったのだが、檞檬は決しお育぀こずがない。なぜなら、アゲハ蝶の幌虫に食い荒らされおいるから。でもアゲハ蝶の幌虫がどれほど葉を食い荒らしおも、殺すこずなんおできない。今は、檞檬を育おおいるずいうより、アゲハ蝶を育おおいる。幌い頃に、隣に鱗翅類孊者が䜏んでいたこずがあっお、今調べおみるずその嚘も鱗翅類孊者になっおいるらしい。なんお玠晎らしい職業なんだず感じる。

コむンは実䞖界に存圚しおいるから䟡倀があるのであっお、そう考えるずコむンは実に3dである。そしお、3dのコむンにはもちろん特性䞊、面が二面ある。だからこそたたに、裏面を芗く必芁がある。裏面をのぞいおしたえば、䜕かに察しお匷く蚀葉を発するこずはできなくなるが、だからず蚀っおそういう人々を銬鹿だず眵るのは、コむンの特性を知らないに等しい。

この゚ントリヌから母囜語である日本語でも曞くこずにしたけど、どうしおも翻蚳したような蚀い回しになっおしたう笑 䜕にせよ、私は日本生たれの日本人なのだけど、瀟䌚的に流通しおる珟代語を扱うこずに、どうしおか長けおいないだからず蚀っお、叀文挢文・昔のもっず䞊品な蚀葉が䜿えるのか、ず聞かれおしたうずそうでもないんだけどね。䞉島のような綺麗な日本語が䜿えたらいいなず思うけれど、それには自分自身を完璧に倉えなければならないので、それはたあ、無理だろう。最近頭に残っおいるのは、坂本韍銬襲撃事件時の「先生、あの時はどうもお䞖話になりたした」に察する「どちら様でしたかな」うろ芚えだけど 数秒埌に起きる暎力ずの察比で色々考えおしたう。坂本韍銬が二人のうちのどちらかわからないから、確認の為に発した蚀葉ずされおいるが、結果的に二人䞡方を切り付けるこずになっおいるから、䜕の為の建前だったのだろうか、ずも感じる。人間は生物性を捚おきれない故に文化的で思考力が凄たじく魅力的な生き物ではあるのだろうけど、生物ずしおの暎力性に関しおは、どうにかできぬものかず考えたりする。葉を殺すよりも、タコを殺す方が、䜕だが悪である気がしおしたう䜕はずもあれ、行動生物孊、ずおも面癜くおおすすめです。日本語だず、どうしおも誰かに語りかけなきゃいけないような気になっおしたうね。


I'm patiently waiting for some of the most talented people's works to come out. It is you, with your vast world-view and imagination. You with no strict-ideals; but you floats along with thoughts without judgment. Words cannot describe how much I am saved by these people; once when commuting to school, I saw a familiar face, very similar to that of an artist I've listened to for years. I could'nt say anything; the words would feel cheap if I were to go up to the certain individual to say " I am saved, I was saved, and I will be saved by what you fought to create. But you wouldn't know; because you aren't me, and I understand. But I just hope, someday, you will stand where I stood and cry at how beautiful the world has brought you up to be. So in the case of self-neglect, we love you and will forever love you for the being you fight to be. The authentic you that is a mere individual and nothing more. The tome will remain amidst the hatred. Do watch the video's on traditional Matsuri and the one on behavioral biology. Be lid of the viscous heart that wants social-acceptance! You are beautiful because you are alone and full of intellegence and sorrow. I bought a lemon tree to raise lemons; only to be surprised by a bunch of Swallow-tail butterfly catapilars. I cannot kill them; they eat the leaves bare, but I cannot kill them still. I now raise not lemons but swallow-tail butterflies. I remember it being a wonderful thing; those butterflies. I lived next to a lepidopterist and a girl who became a lepidopterist herself. Such amazing career. I, in the other hand, am completely indifferent to those who seek power and money; who lives with bubble over their heads. There always is another side to a same coin; the coin is worthless if 2d, so believe it is multi-sided and look to the other side once in a while. Hence,I cannot say things strongly worded, but this does not make one worthy of being scapegoated or called out for their stupidity, for they are not.

38.Kindness

2025.07.04

Gentleness is the greatest trait found in kindness; the doudou-bird did go extinct because of their docile nature but it is not true to say that their gentleness is not great because everything made will lead a path to their fall. None can defy this law of nature. I've found this week that libido with kindness is the two elements of creativity ; you must be docile, kind and gentle to be creative. There also must be libido, despised because of it's violent nature. The dilemma in which the gentle fights its animalistic insticts with such gentleness and kindness calls for creative ambitions and visions that cannot be mentally contained ( and cannot be violently carried out in physical sense). As an ink falls and color the milk a tint of hue, gentleness and the docile nature (neutral zones) can be contaminated easily with strong hue that are violent to some degree and strong because of its certainty. Being certain is not righteousness by any means, but human nature tends to favor the state of being certain in any aspect. However, this calls for enslavement to a certain idea: social strength is a prison. Gentleness to perceive all things in their natural nature is freedom. Ofcourse, society does not favor freedom, as it is the resource that is of the value. And yes; not all are lucky enough to realize and learn the potential this world holds. The question is not if we can fight the fall but how to prolong the inevitable fall. The answer lies in gentleness; the game is made for the elites and the elites only. There is no need for others to play competitively in the game that only bore hatred to the neighbors. The concept is not to lose nor to win; it is to remain gentle, there lies the truth to remaining human in the age of division. Accept the uncertain nature of gentleness, the skies are always that swift blue. Violence of human nature can be defeated, and this is the definition of true strength.

37.Movies

2025.06.23
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新しいテクノロゞヌを擁護する際に「カメラず同じだよ・写真が台頭しおきた時もそうだった」ずいう蚀葉を耳にする。私はそれっお、なんか違うんじゃないかず思う。いや、もちろん新しいテクノロゞヌが最先端であっお人間の圚り方に倉革を起こすずいう意味で「カメラず同じ」であるずいう匁を立おるのに異論はない。実際そうであるず思う。ただ、新しいテクノロゞヌを䞀たずめに「カメラず同じ」ず纏めおしたうのは倚少雑ではないかずいう気持ちが少なからずあるし、私ずしおは「カメラの台頭により倱われた人間の意識やフィゞカリティ」をしっかりず認知する必芁があるず思っおいる。その意識的な思考を行わずにただただ䟿利であっお、それでいお人間に革新を霎すのであれば良いではないか、ず考えるのは文化を捚おる行為に近いず思っおいる。実際、カルチャヌの身䜓的な郚分にはその玠が宿っおいるこずが倚いしむしろ、人䜓を持っおフィゞカルに生たれおいる以䞊、そこからでしか文化は掟生しないその郚分を無芖・軜芖するのは倧倉危険である。テクノロゞヌに察しお、奥手になっおいるわけでも、䜿うなず蚀っおいるわけでもない。ただし、掗濯をする際に掗濯板に垃を圓おお汚れを萜ずしたり、コラヌゞュの際に実際にハサミで茪郭を远ったり、絵を描く際に䜓が筆を動かしおいる、ずいった自己の䜓内に垰る行為のこずを、蔑ろにするべきではない。これらを党く考えないずいうこずそれはある皮、資本䞻矩瀟䌚によっお鈍感に䜜り倉えられおしたった人間の性であるのかもしれない。

Simply there lacks libido in which the movie stands on, or simply there is too much of it to make the act of story telling sacred. Last week I went to see a movie which I was utterly and completely disapointed by, because I quite enjoyed the last one in the series. It felt too verbose, and the director lacked the heat in which they told their last lore. It may be because it lacked libido in which all creative impetus relies on, and with the last film being a successful, the need to control or the longing of life and death must have been put out. I'm not the one to care much if anything is not as expected, but it had some effect on me and I felt quite betrayed. Three days after that, I went to see Megalopolis by Coppola and I undestand what evoked them to make the story, however felt far too personal beyond the film's true intention; which is completely fine as a film. Having the drive to build things such as Megalopolis is to be praised upon; it felt much put together than the unnamed film I saw earlier in the week. It still wasn't enough to hoist me up from the confusing disapointment I had been feeling. It all changed when I stumbled upon this on youtube.The endless sadness of mankind and I cry at the dim light that shines dark hues upon your silhouette. Its a horrid thing and its all so beautiful. I've been watching/reading HunterHunter and its horrifying beyond anything I've read ( maybe a little more than Berserk because the contrast between the light and the dark is sharper in Hunter Hunter, whereas Berserk feels like complete darkness.) Remember that loneliness, remember that darkplace in our town that the mind braced to travel through. Feeling as if there still was light and this light crushed you because of that dark dark place. It feels like that era. I wish to emanate this light that shines onto the sadness of mankind, so we will accept this instead of feeling the need to tear out of ourselves.Does the shadow embrace you still?

36.Beauty

2025.06.04

You've not seen the murky blue of the water simply because of color-blindness; or so thought one who sees every color. The rainbow tightens a bow around the world, clasping it a little tighter but those beady little eyes cannot grasp it's hue. Simply put the world is filled with such beau through and through, however the makeup of one's body limits its perception. If one were to see every beauty there is, that body would know pain like no other, and is the only real pain that is in the world. I do not hate you; because I do not wish to leave it so. No one does hate you so much to tear you into pieces, if we all were aware of this pain. A classmate of mine once said they saw beauty in the decay of this and such is nature; but withholding beauty, one is all so aware of the beauty that lies there and defies it. If not knowing beauty, one will not defy this. A paradox of precious time and perception plays tricks on the stature that is us. You will see me combing the beach for physical beauty, not knowing the cry beneath that prays for the everlasting beauty that this meat body cannot experience; so I love you gust, I love you gaze, and I so do love you garon; even in your hatred that projected itself that late-summers day on the rusty roofs of the barracks. And do not carry any room for any hatred, and will promise to leave you a tome of my beauty that will long-after roam the horizon beyond your perished body. And you will know it, with your precious sensers that presevered itself with immortal beauty and never hid from the pirecing pain that you held dear in the womb.

35.The beach

2025.05.18/27

Dead porpoise (or a baby dolphin?) The rostrum was covered and I do not know enough to make a statement. Found sundial shell. Buried after a while by the tide; the wounds only seen by some.

In the lightest of blues, have you seen the light-weight bird chirping chirping chirping, gust of wind pushing its little hollow body up until you can see it no more but can still hear it's chirp? The never-ending chirp it is; it tries to defy nature but never can with it's stature.

Today at the beach there were dozens of dead birds. It lay in every form, some already eaten by it's own kind. It had been beaten with strong wind and possibly some illness only know to aviators.

Realize this; fall when we all fall, ah that is nature. It is sublime and too strong for any steel will.

Yes. Do not go gentle into that good night, yes. But also, it is not your fault when we all fall. It was nature and nature is that wind that killed all of those birds today; It was the stature of the wind and hollow bone that no will could have beaten.

34. After certain death, I sat beside the window.

2025.04/23.26

Pale blue kind of night it was, I don't remember what I was doing in school;but it was late going home. As I walked I heard a sudden shriek from behind me and turned to see people gathering and panicking whilst one collapsed in the middle. Seemingly, someone was dead. It was a quiet panick that would eat you up for hundred years to come.I turned back for I realized I had come here with a bike, however a guard stopped me and told me to hurry home. So I walked slowly home.

The day after, there had been a seating change and I got the seat next to the window. A dull kind of girl sat next to me, whom I had great empathy for; for I was quite dull myself. I looked on through the open window displaying a gray tall building with red antennae on top. The mountain and the pale blue looming over us.

"Wonder what that gray building is. I've wondered this for almost two years since I've been coming here. (I fear, and pray not to learn of any death, and wonder what those gray concrete brick walls hold. I wonder what the antennae is for, I wonder of the unique lightness of being we share, sitting by this window. I will go home on a bicycle tonight, and there will always be that awful shriek in the back of my wheel. But I will forget, once small free souls round up around the bonfire and dance, and I will watch from the roadside with burnt grass penetrating my nostils.)"

Riso.

33.If it weren't for that green light

2025.04/19

Riding late afternoon through dust, I recall having strong fascination towards the prince in snow white; not attraction, I barely remember what he looks like; I just remember him looking quite fake and I hated that, so no. Not that kind of fascination, but it was when he cut through those roses; the sound of blade slashing through tough vines and roses being cut. Also, all I can remember now in aladdin is him drowning to the depth with weight tied around his leg. I remember having funerals for my dolls as well. Its the same fascination I have toward towns and time; a strange fascination and a very strong fear toward death. The idea makes everything so beautiful, but I fear it and hope not for all to perish for I love that beauty. Such paradox; but paradox make one beautiful as weakness does not look beautiful but makes you beautiful. So be lid not of the weakness of the physical form; the uglyness of the physical makes one so beautiful in idea.

My disinterest in gore and erotica has made me an outcast from society; not an outcast of human but perhaps from the mass. I feel quite human and alike to many other human in this world, but the mass I quite feel apart from; I have found the study of life to be somewhat important nowadays. Not because it is estoric in any way, being a human, bone structures and innards that compose of life and its decay does look intriguing in away as gentle soft shape of humanity does as well. But it is far too loud and far too naive to give in to the tangible things in life for the reality exist in the quiet idea of the worldly components. Think not of the touch; if achievable, flying too close to the sun does not hold any beauty. In the renaissance era of humanity, the unknown brought the idea, the most beautiful state of mind, to us and thus made us curious and estoric. I ride to see the quiet beauty and it is everywhere and I feel hurt because of time; but they stood slouched on the fence next to a combini on the outskirts of middle sized town in the haze of the afternoon light, lighting a tabacco in their hands and ashes fall. The ashes fall. Falls through the grate to the running subway underneath. And the ashes fall.

As you'll know, I would stare forever at the river that flows neither up nor down if it weren't for the green light waiting to change.

Alice chases the white tamed hare; I'll chase the bloody path of a injured stingy stray cat.

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32.Tool

2025.04/13

The brain melts on the white marbled floor in front of the elevator and an eye covered by thick strands sings the song, flat of any ego. Dream of Sci-Fi Esque buildings near the ocean; those that hate the stench of humanity. The ladder hangs tall, leading to extreme cleanliness of the bluesky. Never aroused, but only this. The brain melts on the marbled floor, and they walk past hastely as nothing's there. Nothing is here, and dream of cycling through a seaside factory plot alone, the inhaled poluted sky-grey air dances in your lung and chills your esophagus.

31.Log1

2025.04/10

29.The Mediator Between Head and Hands Must Be the Heart!

2025.03.14/17

I love bonnet shells and cowries; I collect them and cherish them.( but did you hear? they are disinterested in both genders of its own kind. How peculiar.)

There is a calm violance in those with most creativity. A violence of the natural kind; not of ego. Spirituality in shapes and colors; how peculiar. Vice versa, how so common of you! It happens in trusting your peculiar way. A difficult theater; that I've awoke from and never allowed to hear myself sing. (But those marble horses and high gardens know the song.)

It's all fine, I wish for the simplest thing that many others have forgotten about. I wish for the simplest thing, dear god.

The photos shade your shadows a dark shade of hue and the lights are colorful yet shyly saturated, and my dear god; it should be so forever.

Carry a scoop to the ocean...

28.

2025.02.18

"But I don't want comfort. I want God, I want poetry, I want real danger, I want freedom, I want goodness. I want sin."

27.Corn Soup Crossing

2025.01.25

I would like to write to you about the corn soup crossing,where the birds chirp out of no where.

Cars are always parked on top of those roofs, and it takes an hour to climb to the designated spot.

I would like to take you to the corn soup crossing, but I never can.

But when I am able to, you will dress in black; only but a pink tiara perched on your head and shout "Don't you take beauty away from me!"

And I would be ever so happy.

I.Track1

2025.01.15
Motor

0001.Annex, when you've crushed those wings.

2025.01.10

In the annex towers, little shadows follow you everywhere, down the winding descent. It pokes you, a harsh but brisk pain, which was the only lively thing that were in these grey basements.

Come to think of it, we were just now catching small shell-like butterflys for our boss. Now here in the dark, thinking about Stephenson 8-12, greeted by the end, where a large figurine of odd humanoid sculptures sat in a line. Red, orange and perhaps turquoise. It is I, who can make this or, them; who the ego hates the most. A waft of cigar from generations ago, plastered on these walls.

14.Records of ongoing youth

2024.12.21

Freddie's "darlings" aren't adressed at anybody. And I find that attractive. Don't ever find someone to address your "darlings" to. ( But he still loves you. )

UMISIDA KUMA

海志田 阿