I really enjoy it.Maybe mostly the idea of it, but regardless,I do.
I saw Blue Velvet today. It does something to you afterwards.
The white picket fence and flowers at the beginning at the film and at the end of it all feels so different.
It's all a collage and we are free.
I've been re-watching Atlanta as well. I really love Darius.
Weird and Shackleless.
I love and fear potatos.(It's no joke.)
Floating feet, the only thing that blooms on the yellow slope is gunpowder
It's winter now and will forever be
Even though it's night now
On the hills that are caressed by feet touching the ground
The friendly lake was laid diagonally, ignoring the universe
The whole day was nothing,
That day was like a willow summer
All I remember is that it's cold,
Just imagined a horizon that ran through the words
We passed each other a few times, and then I realized
On the board where my thoughts were written,
To the ship that was aimed at me
red on the nose
No burning from the outside, ah, the smell of science
The smell of an atom always fragrant.
nothing
So I'll sing, cursing;that I've always been free
Rest in peace.
Thank you so much for signing the guestbook! Truly made my day.
It's really refreshing to know that my site has been seen, thank you!
Im always thinking on a way to give to this neocities community, and thinking of a zine page where I publish zines regulary.
Flew through the dark blue, without wings;an outcast everytime, never hated.
Atop those red iron terrace, light blue oasis with small toy fish floaties.
Archers are what we were, and never knew, always trying to fit in.
But aim from this height. Watch over and aim.
What beauty, the darkest blue. In this light blue oasis.
And the red rust, the rust that knew all. Our Omen.
In the annex towers, little shadows follow you everywhere, down the winding descent. It pokes you, a harsh but brisk pain, which was the only lively thing that were in these grey basements.
Come to think of it, we were just now catching small shell-like butterflys for our boss. Now here in the dark, thinking about Stephenson 8-12, greeted by the end, where a large figurine of odd humanoid sculptures sat in a line. Red, orange and perhaps turquoise. It is I, who can make this or, them; who the ego hates the most. A waft of cigar from generations ago, plastered on these walls.
There is no need in saying this but seeing people struggling, I've got to speak up.
You are human no more if you think using AI is alright.
Please be human and remain human, and care for what it means to remain human.
It's a cold cold world, and fear brought nothing to us.
Go with hope and never bow down to fear and power. If we are not free, what are we? If our own creation limits our freedom to be human, what are we?
Ask ourselves what we are, and always go along with hope and freedom, and always be sinful. Always be human.
It's amazing. Watched The Cinema Cartographer's "Nothing is punk anymore..." and Melonking's manifesto.
"I don't want comfort. I want God, I want poetry, I want real danger, I want freedom, I want goodness, I want sin." -Aldous Huxley, Brave New World
Found it in the comments, and thought it was beautiful. Its not enough to sit here but there is a need to learn everything, and thats really hopeful and exciting. To wonder into this chaos of a life, thats real.
Happy new year to all, and so long.
This year, I'm planning to live or die. I'm going to pack up and go somewhere or no where.
I might finish up the topias if I feel like it, but nothing more.
Read about the Drumph family, as well as the musks. Such is the world we live in.
So-long. I will be out there, in the ocean, over the mountain, traveling on trains and on foot, thinking about apophis.But for people like me who knows no love for humanity, that is the most beautiful thing one could ever get. So long.
I will still be uploading illustrations ofcourse.
Over the new years, I read The Tartar Steppe and saw Mufasa, The lion king. Remembered I used to be obsessed with Warriors. Cats are just great to look at.
Bologna is a curious place.
The best thing I discovered this year was this place and Itch.io. I have comic series I will upload there next year, these services are great.
Bluesky is great too in terms of social media; I love that they don't have algorithm, and the people there are creative people and are real nice.
I've also fallen in love with One Piece this year. I've read up until Skypia two or three years ago, but I'm now for the most part caught up with the series.Except for Fishman Island and Elbaf. I kind of am disinterested in Fishman Island, but I'm excited to read Elbaf! I love the WhiteBeard Pirates,including Ace and Oden ofcourse, because they seem to be at peace and they all are lanky and beaten up. Nico Robin (the old version of her) and Bolsalino I love as well. I'm glad I found them. But I can't watch or read Marineford ever again because it's too painful.
Also, the library is great because you get unlimited entertainment for free.
Thank you, see you next year.
One cannot be rid of its own roots, such beauty that is unrecogonized by tellers.
My new years resolution is to brush up the topia project into whatever form necessary; hardware is important.
I kind of worship Buzzati now. What is it with these Italian writer with gold symbolic understanding of topos? I will need to research Italian art history as well as their cultural makeup as well as australia. It's really interesting to note that from youth, I have been recommended by teachers mostly Australian and some Italian works to look at. I have been to both countries, I loved both. (Italy more than Australia maybe, because I was in Italy longer and traveled to many cities while I mostly stayed in the Gold Coast Area of Australia.)
I do read many other literature such as American,Japanese,Spanish and Russian, but for some reason I tend to gravitate toward Italian literature. I don't know of many (if not any) Australian writers other then Shaun Tan, so I can't make my mind up about Australian Writers as of now.
I am curious to know of a country in asia which gravitate towards symbolism and topos. but I do not know of any. (Mongolia maybe, but what I've realized through visiting the art gallerys there, is that their works are not so much symbolistic, and found many to be rather monumental.) As is Thailand.
I am also very interested in Peru and their culture. It started with the MV of Naughty Boy and Sam Smith's "La La La", and other documentaries relating to the Potosi Mt. and El Tio.
I also wanna reseach about animals and their relationship with geography, especially marine animals.(Although theirs may be more tempermental)
There is a consequence in pictures adopting to the vertical screen rather horizontal.
As I see it, traditional paintings, were often times drawn in landscape to emphasize and capture the nature of the world (such as time and landscape) through a device that acts as a window. This enabled us to view the world in different rays of light, strengthening our sense of wonder and storytelling.
With rise of vertically held smartphones such as iphones, we tend to lean toward portraits and art with white background and a captivating character.(e.g Nara Yoshitomo) This is all together not a bad thing;character design can be very entertaining and it is a art form that deserves recogonition. However, overflood of these drawings may not result in cultivation of the human imagination. As a vertical painting often does not act as a window, rather a screen showing mesmerising subject and silhouette. (Thus, having no background works in this style.)
Being bilangual, I've also found that Japanese speaking sns users tend to post about their own ideas of lives where, those who speak english tend to post about misc. subjects such as movies they saw, what they did with their family on holiday. It's more action oriented where those who speak japanese are post about idealistics of things. (The algorithm may be at play here, and I'm not speaking of this in certainty; Im merely stating observation.)
It is worth noting that, for some reason or another, Japanese illustrations tend to be rather vertical. I've also found that for some reason or another, Chinese artists often work horizontally.
Now, I know that with how global the world is becoming, it is not often right to catergorize one into certain country. However, I sometimes wonder if specific art education in a certain area encourages one style of paiting, causing some areas of the world to favor different styles. As do many factors, such as the natural landscape they inhabit.
I am most curious about the art education in the EU, Russia and China, because I see different niches growing in these areas; the EU being very strong in indie and unique original underground art, Russia very fluid in multi-media and amalgamation of different styles of art that are put together skilfully in digital softwares, and china being very skilful and organized in rendering their art into a beautiful complete piece.
It all may be the result of financial reasons and broadening the target audience. In the Heisei era of japan, japanese anime still apealed to very little people and they were taunted as being "Otaku". In this era, such anime as "Serial Expirement Lain" and " Evangelion" as well as other animes with very unique storytelling and niche demographic were aired. However, with the rise of Shonen Mangas, animation companies in japan ceased to make original content and stuck to best selling mangas to turn into animes. With the uprise of social media as well as the pandemic, "Otakus" were diluted to majority, and many anime companies had to make "something that apeals to the mass audience, turning storytelling much simpler and often times focusing on man vs. man themes.
So at this stage, I ask myself; is it always best to apeal to many people, or simply strive for complex yet skillfully rendered story telling?
I am not proclaiming to be a expert, but only a curious individual who would like to see the resolution in horizon.
Some unrelated happy news: My fabicon started working for some reason. Yay.
Alice in Wonderland 1915
I was feeling like shit because of what I am and what I am not, but after lunch with my family ( which I am really greatful for,) I ventured out to the local library to find After Man,my childhood favorite book, laying on the free books pile. I remember begging my dad to buy "After Man" and "The Future is Wild" for christmas or something when I was in elementry school, so I thank some unknown force for this christmas gift.
Because of the current economic situation I'm in, I didn't anticipate on getting any gifts this year, but the "After Man" book as well as a surprise gift from a very kind online artist whom I admire a lot, saved this failing soul.
I am still the same piece of shit, but nature's calling, just dance through it till the last breath.
Happy Holidays Neocities; I see those limelights.
I feel great now. The greatest.
I have stumbled across the most beautiful video file in the world; "The Last Call of Kaua'i'o'o Bird"
Here said Gust as he pulled something out of his pocket, his eyes crescent. It shone like no other in a hue unseen. As he unclutched his hand, he said "I will give you Dystopia." It was beautiful, and with this came complete peace.
Such demons we were, and still fine if we'd acknowledged the fact, but we were all busy naming ourselves and flaunting. The last bird knew how stupidly cute we were and the sang a song of the green gem.
Every precious last who knows best laughs and laughs.
Point to it; see it take form then perish.
Nobody knew of the business the grandparent's ran: only that it was a bovine job with low pay. They've now gone to their homes now; a lengthy one with lot of hallways that all lead to the same place.
The kind widow offered to take over the buisiness, and she decreased in size and looked more like a elementry school kid; the kids now taller than she.
In the grey world, thay passed every snowflakes, pushing a colorful carnivalesque cart with white and red stripes with lights dangling down from it.
They walked in silence, and the cart lit up the world, and we all felt like a kid again.
Beautiful things I've encountered this week: The Gouma In,The Tar Tar Steppes,The room above all others, dark mountains, Peru (always)
I used to enjoy Kuniyoshi's works more but recently I'm really fond of Hiroshige's works.
Hey OTis, make some music to lighten up yourself (of this rigid houshold where race is more important than time)
I listened to "nine point eight" when I was told I couldn't study or think like others.
I vigorously watched Adventure time and dreamed of the peaceful chaos.
I listened to "Rosa" and "Realiti" and was in awe that such beauty still existed and was amazed by its freedom and melancholy.
I listened to "Things so far" and "Nie" and imagined places I could never have imagined alone.
I still remember how I felt when I listened to "Blind Mind" and "Fantasy" for the first time on the barren internet and quiet youtube. I still live off of it.
I wish I could have the strength and honesty like them because they quite literally saved my ongoing youth.I see the horizon; faraway but ever so grand.
I thank you and wish for every peace for each soul.
Freddie's "darlings" aren't adressed at anybody. And I find that attractive. Don't ever find someone to address your "darlings" to. ( But he still loves you. )
Yesterday,I went on a little bike trip. I like going on these bike trips because you really get to see the in and the out of a town.I used to bike around town when I was a middle schooler, but a teenager biking around town can some times be dangerous because I lived in a district with harsh segregation and some places were unsafe to go biking around in, so I just went through town and along lake michigan.I remember stumbling across a dead hare with it's intestine glistening in the sun and my friend and I would stare at it.
Some shop was having a closing sale and I was tempted to buy thoose angelic post cards for 10 cents, but decided not to go in because my dog was with me and I didn't know if the shop keeper appriciates dogs.
I saw a kingfisher and a heron whilst walking along the river. I really love kingfishers because it looks like those little things have a huge frontal lobe or something. And they are colorful and really pleasent sounding.
There is a park I can never get to, on top of a hill with the train station.
Someone who arrived yesterday keeps leaving things everywhere and opening every closet that remains open (also some bloody stuff that I clean). I learned that people are just unaware of everyone's situation and they don't plan to learn about it once they've established they have the right not to so pointing things out to anyone is pointless. But I really don't care about that. I just think more and more about the post-apocalyptic world and remain peaceful. Because everything else is really beautiful and I won't have that taken away from me, ever.
Viktor was right in saying "There is no prize to perfection... only an end to pursuit."
And I live to pursuit curiousity:to play. That might be all it's worth. The horizon used to be wide and mysterious; now unseeen covered by the bulky skyscraper that race to the top and laugh and screech.
It's a luxury to live here: with health insuarance, safe streets. But I feel that the country dying and so is it's soul for curiousity and pursuit.
To put it simply,I hate it here and wish to change it for the better,or just leave all together, if one is lucky enough.
But the land is somewhat long and vast; I might find somewhere to be happy in. It's all pursuit till the day I die.
Pursuit can become addictive, so it's neat to dance once in a while!
Ordered some Italian literature from the library and a book on buddist statues.
There is a goat on a civilized cliff and an elevator that flips midair.(sometimes,one gets stuck in there) A leaflike toad sticks to the screen and some girls are being chased by the police.
Beautiful things I've encountered this week: Masked Senju Kannnon, Sailor Song by Gigi Perez, Sound(wave) of the sun, Frozen Cheese Croquettes(5pc. for less than a dollar!), The one thunder without sound, Lonely artists and writers with eyes that wonder around anxiously in an interview.
Everything that goes unoticed by ignorance and unnatural narcissism.
I sometimes come across Gen AI works on instagram and think, that the creature depicted in the picture is something that differs from what we draw and symbolize as humans. It feels as if I'm looking at newfound specie of alien. I'm really fond of faults in an artistic piece. By faults I mean unique human tendencies.That's what excites me about art .Therefore,Im against AI for the most part.
It's a conclusion that majority of people have gone with; the money earning, the busy life, the progress that we might not have needed to live happily. As part of the society,I have to accept this but hope that one day, I can encourage people to live more freely and peacefuly with strength and honesty.I feel like Oda is doing this and I appriciate that. I really want to do what he does.
Beauty, please look away and contain it evermore. Don't stare directly at it. It's Medusa's eyes you are looking at; tightening up so you won't fly no more.
Lately,I've been seeing the same person in my dream. It's someone who I admire alot,and they talk to me about something everytime I see them but I somehow can't recall what it was about.
I saw a video essay about the office today, and learned somewhat about character writing. I don't really know why, but I tend to have appreciation for weird characters who have some power but has no idea how to use them. (or they are just downright mad.) Like the Boss in Smiling Friends,Lemongrab in adventure time,Prince Hata in Gintama, Wonka in Charlie and the Chocolate Factory (the Johnny Depp one) and Michael Scott in the Office.I think they are really neat.Maybe its the comical aspect that I'm after
I myself am going mad over Paolo Uccello's "Saint George and the Dragon". How could one compete with that? I try, and will keep trying.
I went to the theaters to see Robot Dreams yesterday. A very cute film containing weird icecream dude. The chaos is nice; we should encourage chaos and lonliness because that't the beauty of life. Once in a while we'd ask if we remember those tunes and will look back on the beauty that left us.
I love lonely people in chaos becuase they are great, truly beautiful.I hope they find peace in themselves and the chaotic world around. More on Spirits of the sky, Gremlins in the Clouds and The Man Who Stole th Sun; two of my favorite films.
I've not been objective enough lately but decided to think that drawing and coding are very similar in a way.
House made of blue galvanized iron sheets."Totan" is a interesting word.
Anyways,I want to do better before the new year comes. Trying my hardest.
Maybe try more complex compositions and shapes, as well as ideas.I've liked keeping stuff simple for the past few month, but doesn't hurt to do somethings different once in a while.
I really like the art I see on Bluesky,and hate the kind of art I see on insta.(in general, because there are some amazing artists on there. Its just the "for you" page thats out of wack, nothing about it is for me.)
Today at around 2am, I have detected a new topia called "Chronotopia".This is a topia with high walls, pentrating the sky. The top tiers are inhabited by the rich and the old,and is quite airly. No one knows that they've lived their whole lives in a Kingofisher Facility; they just percieve it as an open world like ours.The bottom tiers are the closest to exit, but with chaos and havoc down there, no one believes the exit exists. Well, except for one anyways. I have no idea what to call this individual but they symbolize "a grain of sand in a million"
Because this topia lacks in natural occuring entertainment, there are theaters all around with game machines. It's a dark dark place if you don't live at the top tier, and reminded me bit of a Satyrcon by Felini.
Interested in making wind blow through my pieces, but I don't plan on getting adobe afteraffects so attempting to understand it manually.
I have no intention of making my illustrations political and have a very specific back story in mind that has nothing to do with the real world and yet, I realize that my subconscious is too strong when I look back at works I did in the past. It's really up to everyone else to interpret my art as they like, but I really am a pacifist when it comes to all things.
I wonder if the world would be a better place if all portable digital screens were horizontal rather verticle. More on the belief of Niraikanai.(also, I would like to know more on belief in symbolism.)
I created a banner for my page yesterday, and found it quite entertaining. I would love to add more zany gif's to my page, and do commissioned gif packs.
Really am interested in making more surreal/horror art right now.
Is AI beautiful from perspective of an outsider, like an alien who has no understanding of society nor culture?
I saw a moonbow.In October, I went to a planentarium with my friend, and they explained what moonbow and white-rainbow was and we were saying that it would be amazing if we can see them in real life. The actual moonbow was so surreal and awesome. The bow being a perfect circle just amuse me. Two weeks ago, I saw a fireball at the same spot. I wish I knew more about everything, but with the US putting forces up there to compete with russian and chinese satelites... Humans always make war everywhere and take peace for granted. Have we lost it? There used to be whole dream up there. I feel like everybody is sick theses days. But we can be free someday, so protect your brains. Is there still hope fore us? Maybe if our thoughts weren't so relative to everything...
Watching Lolita had me thinking about what it means to percieve something. All artists take part in the human perception so I wonder if we are doing any good right now. Because it makes me sick to draw in misogyny and racism among other things.
I used to make games in school, enjoyed it quite a lot. Dabbling in HTML might get me back on that track. I'm on a side-quest here; doing everything my mentors told me not to do and not persuing the recommended path. But I will get back on everything someday; from contemporary painting to game dev to writing in general. I'm here to enjoy and soak up every media I can because just about everything amuses me. How did you manage,davinci?
It's hard being creative in this economy, but I wish you all the best in your endeavors.
As for myself, I've been working on few commissions, (Thankyou so much for the requests! I love working on them, and it helps me out a lot.) as well as a picture book,manga about hypnotopia, and other misc. illustrations. I hate to admit it but I'm an extreme multi-tasker.
Started listening to Hyperpop music because it calms me.The irony. O' to have grown up with a screen on your face and listening to artificial voices. I know I'm truly at peace when I search for classic violin music to listen to ( which I never do).
Things I'm into now
I've been watching onepiece quite a lot these days.I think Edward Newgate is beautiful.Two years ago, I saw a large sea-turtle dead on the beach. It's posture made it seem like it's still alive; with is neck held high. However, it was deceased, with blood on its head.
It was absolutely beautiful,and Edward Newgate kind of reminds me of them. Marine animals are just majestic aren't they?
Neocities; even the name sounds awesome. There are things I'm looking for in life,and this might be one of them. Started coding(?) in html, a complete newbie.